... I REALLY dont like working on the weekends!
Discover Drexel Day was today, and I had to work from 8 until 4.What a LOooooong day. Soo tired!
Then I came home, showered and went to see Charlie and the Chocolate factory with Hector at the Caf. good times! We got food for free - I dont think we were supposed to. We got chocolate covered strawberries and pretzles. And then we stole a pumpkin! Pumpkin soup, pie, bread, cookies, seeds.... Everything pumpkin= YUM!!!
SO today wasnt a total loss- but i stilll dont like work on the weekends! Its 10:30 and im exausted! Im going to go to sleeep in a lil while.
I think i am going to try to get my mom to bring my sister up at some point this week- play hooky a day.
OK well thats me... and im out.
Good night moon
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Saturday, October 22, 2005
I've found a fatal flaw in the logic of love
and go out of my head
you love a sinking stone that will never elope
so get used to the losesome
girl you must atone some
dont leave me no phone number there
La ti da....
Yea, so this weekend was, well, boring.
Friday was interesting, Hector and I went right from work, met up with his roommates and watched this movie Farmingville (based near my house). It was about the illegal immigrants and the other residents there and the tension. It was really good- I definately enjoyed it.
Then i went home with the intention of a short nap. I slept, and slept ... and slept. I woke up at about 5am and then went back to sleep until about 10:30/11. Then hung around my apt all day cuz it was POURING! So yea i didnt do anytihn all day. Laura and them want me to comeover to night but i have to wake up tomorrow at like 7 for the event and im not going out in the rain.
I want someone to visit me (someone in particular) but no one is.
I have to wake up at 7 tomorrow, as i said already, Aaaaaah! I am not even tired.
I hate waking up early, i hate going to bed early.
Tomorrow should be a good day. After the event which will be my frst event, I am going to see Charlie and the chocolate factory! AWESOME! Im excited about that.
OK im out. I am going to try to get tired... wish me luck!
... I wish i had someone to snuggle with, :-(
Good Night, moon.
and go out of my head
you love a sinking stone that will never elope
so get used to the losesome
girl you must atone some
dont leave me no phone number there
La ti da....
Yea, so this weekend was, well, boring.
Friday was interesting, Hector and I went right from work, met up with his roommates and watched this movie Farmingville (based near my house). It was about the illegal immigrants and the other residents there and the tension. It was really good- I definately enjoyed it.
Then i went home with the intention of a short nap. I slept, and slept ... and slept. I woke up at about 5am and then went back to sleep until about 10:30/11. Then hung around my apt all day cuz it was POURING! So yea i didnt do anytihn all day. Laura and them want me to comeover to night but i have to wake up tomorrow at like 7 for the event and im not going out in the rain.
I want someone to visit me (someone in particular) but no one is.
I have to wake up at 7 tomorrow, as i said already, Aaaaaah! I am not even tired.
I hate waking up early, i hate going to bed early.
Tomorrow should be a good day. After the event which will be my frst event, I am going to see Charlie and the chocolate factory! AWESOME! Im excited about that.
OK im out. I am going to try to get tired... wish me luck!
... I wish i had someone to snuggle with, :-(
Good Night, moon.
Monday, October 17, 2005
blooorg ... foood!?
blorg....
So this weekend was interesting.
Friday I went to Taco Lous with Hector and his roommates - My first tiiime- Yuuuum! I took a nap til like 1030ish and then went to James, Mikes Griffin Laura and Lees house and drank a lil bit, smoked some hookah and saw Dan T who I havent seen since last year. Then I saw someone Nakeey :-P and went to sleep hahaha. Good Night
Sat. I met up with Bayrin and his GF- Amanda, Emray, and Rocco! We went to the wrestling house got drinked and then back to Bayrins apt - i feel asleep ad then went to my apt where Rocco and I crashed.
Sunday, I woke up at like 3, and then stayed in cleaned and basically did nothing all day and then hung out with Johny and watched Alexander( Wiiiiierd effin movie) - at least part of if till we both fell asleep.
I woke up this morning and went to work, easy day but i didnt get my "lunch" break till like 4! And I got a Gyro from the lunch trucks where the guys were convinced that I am greek and then I went up to the freshman dorms and distributed the flyers to get ppl for room tours.
After work I met up with Steph T and got Jamie Kennedy tickets- $10 but I think itll be fun times when we go.
Now im sitting in my apt thinking aobut how I havent seen Hector in a while and that makes me sad, and thinking that Chris never came on sunday- but i kind of flaked out on him on sat night so i guess that happens :-/...
Whatelse? Mike still owes me a movie but hes siick :-(
And my back and neck huuuuurt!
Thats all for now - i am going to make sumthing to eeat.
fooooood!
Marilys
So this weekend was interesting.
Friday I went to Taco Lous with Hector and his roommates - My first tiiime- Yuuuum! I took a nap til like 1030ish and then went to James, Mikes Griffin Laura and Lees house and drank a lil bit, smoked some hookah and saw Dan T who I havent seen since last year. Then I saw someone Nakeey :-P and went to sleep hahaha. Good Night
Sat. I met up with Bayrin and his GF- Amanda, Emray, and Rocco! We went to the wrestling house got drinked and then back to Bayrins apt - i feel asleep ad then went to my apt where Rocco and I crashed.
Sunday, I woke up at like 3, and then stayed in cleaned and basically did nothing all day and then hung out with Johny and watched Alexander( Wiiiiierd effin movie) - at least part of if till we both fell asleep.
I woke up this morning and went to work, easy day but i didnt get my "lunch" break till like 4! And I got a Gyro from the lunch trucks where the guys were convinced that I am greek and then I went up to the freshman dorms and distributed the flyers to get ppl for room tours.
After work I met up with Steph T and got Jamie Kennedy tickets- $10 but I think itll be fun times when we go.
Now im sitting in my apt thinking aobut how I havent seen Hector in a while and that makes me sad, and thinking that Chris never came on sunday- but i kind of flaked out on him on sat night so i guess that happens :-/...
Whatelse? Mike still owes me a movie but hes siick :-(
And my back and neck huuuuurt!
Thats all for now - i am going to make sumthing to eeat.
fooooood!
Marilys
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Up-to-date
Wow, its been a while since Ive posted and a bit has happened- ill bring it up-to-date...
Ok well my other froggie died, i cried, and now i need something else to put in my tank... any suggestions?
Ive almost gotten through my 2nd full 45 hour week(its thursday) at my coop. It is really easy. But i think it is going well, Vikki is assigning me my own projects left and right and also I really love that there isnt micro-managing there, it makes my life so much nicer. Actually I tihnk that there IS but im not being Micomanaged and thats what I like. :-P
Umm.. whatelse?
Oh, He and I arent talking. I dont know if it is intentional but its happening. We dont im eashother and even our blurb nothing emails during the day have stopped. He hasnt called basically all week - I spoke to him on tuesday for like 2 min. and then he said he was watching TV so we said bye. I imed him later and he said sorry, i am busy and never imed me again. I hope he realizes that what he does has a huge impact on how I think of him. I am seeing the real him... and the more I see the more I question how much I even Really LIKE him, much less love him. Well, if you couldnt tell, I am over him which is good.
Now, there is someone new. The only thing thats a lil odd, well there are 2 things, but the 1st is the fact that we work together( it makes things a lil wierd) and the 2nd is the fact that I am just not sure that I want anything right now and I dont know what he wants. I mean, we NEver talk about anything like that. We should, but when we hang out we are like friends until we hook-up. And then when we are done, its friends again... its like starting from scratch everytime we hang out- that's strange too.
OK well now that I think I am all up-to-date, I neeed a massage!!!
Anyone interested in trading massages, CALL ME!!!!!
Ok well my other froggie died, i cried, and now i need something else to put in my tank... any suggestions?
Ive almost gotten through my 2nd full 45 hour week(its thursday) at my coop. It is really easy. But i think it is going well, Vikki is assigning me my own projects left and right and also I really love that there isnt micro-managing there, it makes my life so much nicer. Actually I tihnk that there IS but im not being Micomanaged and thats what I like. :-P
Umm.. whatelse?
Oh, He and I arent talking. I dont know if it is intentional but its happening. We dont im eashother and even our blurb nothing emails during the day have stopped. He hasnt called basically all week - I spoke to him on tuesday for like 2 min. and then he said he was watching TV so we said bye. I imed him later and he said sorry, i am busy and never imed me again. I hope he realizes that what he does has a huge impact on how I think of him. I am seeing the real him... and the more I see the more I question how much I even Really LIKE him, much less love him. Well, if you couldnt tell, I am over him which is good.
Now, there is someone new. The only thing thats a lil odd, well there are 2 things, but the 1st is the fact that we work together( it makes things a lil wierd) and the 2nd is the fact that I am just not sure that I want anything right now and I dont know what he wants. I mean, we NEver talk about anything like that. We should, but when we hang out we are like friends until we hook-up. And then when we are done, its friends again... its like starting from scratch everytime we hang out- that's strange too.
OK well now that I think I am all up-to-date, I neeed a massage!!!
Anyone interested in trading massages, CALL ME!!!!!
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Morning randomness
Good Morning all, I think this is the earliest I have woken up since I have been here in Philly. I am tiiiiiiired because I stayed up last night and had pancakes with Joe, James, Laura, Jermaine, and Jason until 1 and then I came home and dod all my shit t get ready for work- whiiich is the reason I am awake at this point in the morning (early!!!). Haha it ok Im actually not that tired. I hope I am dressed up enough- Today is a tour day, and I am wearing black capris and my white and purple sleevless top with the black bow dealy- its a V-neck crossover top, it looks nice but I think that there should be a jacket or something but a) I dont have one and b) its a million degrees out! So this will HAve to do! Oh speaking of degrees- I have to check the weather, and I also have to remember to make lunch and eat breakfast, and now i only have 40 min, so I am going to get on that! Wooooooork!
Peace out Cubscout
Marilys
Peace out Cubscout
Marilys
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Mourning... :'-)
I woke up this morning to a phone call from Laura asking me to call Mike cuz he flaked out and didnt show up to let james in - He is moving in! I made the phone calls and Mike came into the city.
Then, I went to feed my froggies only to see Turbo on his back in the middle of the tank.
I am devistated! I killed Turbo after 2 days! I didnt even keep him alive for a week- Im horrible. I callously had to flush poor Turbo- There is nowhere to create a burial. Oh this is so bad. My first pet - GONE!
And it couldnt come at a more UNopportune time. I am going through such hell right now. i mean nothing seems to be going well, and now to top it off- I've killed a frog, and one that I love!
Gosh!
Marilys
Then, I went to feed my froggies only to see Turbo on his back in the middle of the tank.
I am devistated! I killed Turbo after 2 days! I didnt even keep him alive for a week- Im horrible. I callously had to flush poor Turbo- There is nowhere to create a burial. Oh this is so bad. My first pet - GONE!
And it couldnt come at a more UNopportune time. I am going through such hell right now. i mean nothing seems to be going well, and now to top it off- I've killed a frog, and one that I love!
Gosh!
Marilys
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Froggieeeeeeeees!
Hrrmmm... so that whole spider thing didnt work as well as i'd hoped. The thingy looked kewl before I posted it, but its all good!
SO, Mike and I went to Best Buy and then to dinner at Outback(my first time) it was gooood! Then we went to the petshop and I got 2 Frogs!!! They are adorable! I luv them. Mike for my birthday, got my 3 Plants- which are awesome. :-D One is a big leafy plant that changes color from green to yellow to orange to red and then to dark red, so it matches my apt really well! Another one is a pepper plant that has yellow, orange, and red peppers (I dont think they are edible but the look MAd kewl)! And the last one is a peace Lily, which has white spikey things and white flower-petal- like thingys and green leaves but its going to grow to be HUGE so its totally awesome!
Oh man my frogs are named Turbo and Escape (pronounced Es-ca-pay) and they are awesome! Escape is crazy and energized and Turbo doesnt move much but when it does it can be maaad fast! They are insanly awesome and too cute.
So Mike, was here helpign me set up the tank and stuff like that. We exchanged massages and that was awesome. But the entire time, I wanted to Jump his bones. Hahaha. I am really bad, but I am also kind of glad I have self-control. I would hate for anytihng to be uncomfy btwn us and I dont know if he's comfy with that. I mean I love our friendship and I dont want him to feel wierd or anything like that. I think that I might tell him that if he ever wants to do anything to just tell me because I dont know if he knows that or if he would want to. Sooo... ::shrug:: we shall see.
John is coming to visit next weekend. Thats gonna be fun! :-)
OK well, im out :-)
Marilys
P.S. Sry bout the all-overness of this post. Im a scatterbrain today!
SO, Mike and I went to Best Buy and then to dinner at Outback(my first time) it was gooood! Then we went to the petshop and I got 2 Frogs!!! They are adorable! I luv them. Mike for my birthday, got my 3 Plants- which are awesome. :-D One is a big leafy plant that changes color from green to yellow to orange to red and then to dark red, so it matches my apt really well! Another one is a pepper plant that has yellow, orange, and red peppers (I dont think they are edible but the look MAd kewl)! And the last one is a peace Lily, which has white spikey things and white flower-petal- like thingys and green leaves but its going to grow to be HUGE so its totally awesome!
Oh man my frogs are named Turbo and Escape (pronounced Es-ca-pay) and they are awesome! Escape is crazy and energized and Turbo doesnt move much but when it does it can be maaad fast! They are insanly awesome and too cute.
So Mike, was here helpign me set up the tank and stuff like that. We exchanged massages and that was awesome. But the entire time, I wanted to Jump his bones. Hahaha. I am really bad, but I am also kind of glad I have self-control. I would hate for anytihng to be uncomfy btwn us and I dont know if he's comfy with that. I mean I love our friendship and I dont want him to feel wierd or anything like that. I think that I might tell him that if he ever wants to do anything to just tell me because I dont know if he knows that or if he would want to. Sooo... ::shrug:: we shall see.
John is coming to visit next weekend. Thats gonna be fun! :-)
OK well, im out :-)
Marilys
P.S. Sry bout the all-overness of this post. Im a scatterbrain today!
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Yet another post today
hokay, so... another post today because something interesting happened. I confessed a secret! Now this was a double whammy secret. It had to do with my snoopy nature and my untrusting nature. I TOLD someone that I dont trust easily and because of that I was compelled to snoop around his/her stuff; i tihnk that this is a huge step for me. It both shows that i can be totally honest with this person (more so than with anyone else) and that in fact, I want him/her to know me better than anyone else. I have never confessed this to anyone and Ive been a snoop for as long as I can remember. The thing is that it is only with people that I really care about. I tihnk its because I want to know everything about them even stuff they want to hide- and believe me Ive found some stuff that I regret fiinding. But just a note- dont judge me, I dont snoop often and I usually subtly fess up, b.c of my conviction to be honest.
Also, Mike and i were talking and he said the sweetest thing to me- He said that he never loved anyone like he loved me. Now, we are just friends now, and its really hard but we are woring on it. But that has to be one of the greatest things he has ever said to me. He always makes me feel so special and loved. And to give him even more credit- even after I was a complete jerk to him he still wants to hang out with me tomorrow... isnt he amazing! I think he is! :-D I just hope he knows it!
oK well thats all
Outie like a baby's belly button.
MariLys
Also, Mike and i were talking and he said the sweetest thing to me- He said that he never loved anyone like he loved me. Now, we are just friends now, and its really hard but we are woring on it. But that has to be one of the greatest things he has ever said to me. He always makes me feel so special and loved. And to give him even more credit- even after I was a complete jerk to him he still wants to hang out with me tomorrow... isnt he amazing! I think he is! :-D I just hope he knows it!
oK well thats all
Outie like a baby's belly button.
MariLys
Friday, September 09, 2005
Wow, I didnt realize how boring I am. :-P I have been able to add an entry everyday- that is just one indicator that my life is Lacking! hahaha. Its ok tho, bc I like doing nothign a being a bum; its the summer thats what I am supposed to do. And in exactly 1 week from today, I will be at work in the DU undergrad admissions office, so I am going to enjoy doing nothing as long as I can.
I woke up at like 130 today which was amazing and did nothing except mosy around my apartment and read all day- oh and made rice krispy treats and then proceeded to eat tooo much and I still have so much left. Cooking for one person is really annoying- there is always too much food. Oh man, so I have to get down to Urban cable at some point so that I can pick up the box, but for serious- its waaaaay waaaaay North Philly, and I am not aobut to take my white bum to wander around there - that is just not smart. Knowing my luck I would be liable to get jumped, kidnapped, or raped. hahaha OK so im exaggerating a bit but its a city like any other and you shouldnt walk around in areas you dont know and alone to boot. Now I am not saying that Im scared but im not stupid!
SOooo, yesterday Mike said that he would take me today, but I havent been able to get in touch with him to make sure hes still taking me and they close at 6 and its 430 so, I have no idea. But, Ill figure it out- I hope.
Annnyway, I went on a date with John yesterday, we grabed a bite to eat and then we saw Coach Carter. Which may i say, was a really good movie- but why was it Black and White?!? What was the point of that. At firstI thought it was to give it the feeling of it being old, or sometihng like that, but the characters spoke like people do today, dressed like ppl do today, and were listening to songs that are popular today. So I have NOO idea what that was about. OK back to the date:: During the movie John kept trying to hold my hand and ya know just flitatiusly touch me. I think I kind of rejected him- I didnt mean to be mean, but i just wasnt feeling it. He is a sweet guy but I dont feel any connection- on this end. Also, it may not be a conection thing- I think it might have to do with the ex. I still have these overwhelmingly strong feelings for Him and because I cant seem to kick them, I doubt ill beable to have anysort of connection with any other guy. BLAH- why does my blog always end up having something to do with Him- its kind of frustrating, but I guess it does make sense.
OK well, im going to go do more of nothing... which will prolly end with me thinking about Him. ::shrug:: what can u do? Nothing
<3 Peacing out
Marilys
P.S. Happy Birthday Alex- cant wait to party with you!
I woke up at like 130 today which was amazing and did nothing except mosy around my apartment and read all day- oh and made rice krispy treats and then proceeded to eat tooo much and I still have so much left. Cooking for one person is really annoying- there is always too much food. Oh man, so I have to get down to Urban cable at some point so that I can pick up the box, but for serious- its waaaaay waaaaay North Philly, and I am not aobut to take my white bum to wander around there - that is just not smart. Knowing my luck I would be liable to get jumped, kidnapped, or raped. hahaha OK so im exaggerating a bit but its a city like any other and you shouldnt walk around in areas you dont know and alone to boot. Now I am not saying that Im scared but im not stupid!
SOooo, yesterday Mike said that he would take me today, but I havent been able to get in touch with him to make sure hes still taking me and they close at 6 and its 430 so, I have no idea. But, Ill figure it out- I hope.
Annnyway, I went on a date with John yesterday, we grabed a bite to eat and then we saw Coach Carter. Which may i say, was a really good movie- but why was it Black and White?!? What was the point of that. At firstI thought it was to give it the feeling of it being old, or sometihng like that, but the characters spoke like people do today, dressed like ppl do today, and were listening to songs that are popular today. So I have NOO idea what that was about. OK back to the date:: During the movie John kept trying to hold my hand and ya know just flitatiusly touch me. I think I kind of rejected him- I didnt mean to be mean, but i just wasnt feeling it. He is a sweet guy but I dont feel any connection- on this end. Also, it may not be a conection thing- I think it might have to do with the ex. I still have these overwhelmingly strong feelings for Him and because I cant seem to kick them, I doubt ill beable to have anysort of connection with any other guy. BLAH- why does my blog always end up having something to do with Him- its kind of frustrating, but I guess it does make sense.
OK well, im going to go do more of nothing... which will prolly end with me thinking about Him. ::shrug:: what can u do? Nothing
<3 Peacing out
Marilys
P.S. Happy Birthday Alex- cant wait to party with you!
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Mad good times today! Nicole and I went down chestnut street to the shopping strip. We hit up the Gap outlet store, I got 2 pairs of trousers, 2 v-neck shirts and a button-down shirt - all for under $100 it was a sweet deal. I mean its GAP and the clothes fit me really well and the pants and button-down are perfect for work so I am so happy with my purchases! 8-)
Then on the way back He calls me and is like hey im here are u ready for indian food. So we going out for food- which was DELISH and then we went back to his house. I helped clean the paint off his floor; its nice a clean now. Laura was there and she helped a whole bunch so that was nice and then the 3 of us went down to urban cable works- she had to set up the cable and I had to pick up a box, but they werent open. Effin thing said they were open until 9 but they were only open until 6 - what kind of Bull is that. Mad misrepresentation- grrrrr! But w/e we got over it- now I have to find another ride down there tho, this time before 6, arg. Then we went to wawa- Laura got some eats and He got mon-ay. After that, we dropped Laura off at the house and He came and dropped me off. He not only dropped me off he came inside.
Ugh! I dont know what to do about it, how to get him to see that what we had/have is amazingly special and make him realize he doesnt want to give it up. How am I supposed to do that!?! He said that if we get together hes never going to beable to end it- but what does that mean? If something is that good, then why would you want to end it at all? There is something missing from this equation- no? I know and understand that he wants to romp around and ya know all that , but its not working if hes still doing stuff with me. I hope he realizes that. I think I might try a different approach- All or Nothing. I mean right now I know we doesnt want anything as far as commitment- but i think that means that I am going to have to cut him off of all benifits of Lys.
Nomore overly friendly Lys, nomore anything that isnt something I'd do for a friend- and not even a close friend, Just a friend. Thats what he wants thats what hes going to get. And then if he decides that he wants all of Lys, then it will be ALL, we are dating, and thats it- nomore wishy washy, bull b/c im tired. Tired of not knowing, tired of being played, tired of dealing with this crap - it hardly seems worth it. Soo, im done!
Furthermore frustration, I dont want all the attention that I am currently getting from the opposite sex(not saying that it isnt flattering- b/c it is but) I dont get it, and I dont know how to handle it. It's not very fair to whoever may come along looking to me for affection. I think I am just going to enjoy being single for a while- I mean guys are nice and fun and its good to have one, but right now i dont think I am ready ... so the single life is where im going to be for a while- at least until I find someone that can truly measure up, and be everything i need. I know its a lot, but I know he is out there- Ive already found one that has everything necessary except for one thing- is willing to be with me, now.
Oh well- thats life I guess...
Im off like a dirty shirt
~ Lys
Then on the way back He calls me and is like hey im here are u ready for indian food. So we going out for food- which was DELISH and then we went back to his house. I helped clean the paint off his floor; its nice a clean now. Laura was there and she helped a whole bunch so that was nice and then the 3 of us went down to urban cable works- she had to set up the cable and I had to pick up a box, but they werent open. Effin thing said they were open until 9 but they were only open until 6 - what kind of Bull is that. Mad misrepresentation- grrrrr! But w/e we got over it- now I have to find another ride down there tho, this time before 6, arg. Then we went to wawa- Laura got some eats and He got mon-ay. After that, we dropped Laura off at the house and He came and dropped me off. He not only dropped me off he came inside.
Ugh! I dont know what to do about it, how to get him to see that what we had/have is amazingly special and make him realize he doesnt want to give it up. How am I supposed to do that!?! He said that if we get together hes never going to beable to end it- but what does that mean? If something is that good, then why would you want to end it at all? There is something missing from this equation- no? I know and understand that he wants to romp around and ya know all that , but its not working if hes still doing stuff with me. I hope he realizes that. I think I might try a different approach- All or Nothing. I mean right now I know we doesnt want anything as far as commitment- but i think that means that I am going to have to cut him off of all benifits of Lys.
Nomore overly friendly Lys, nomore anything that isnt something I'd do for a friend- and not even a close friend, Just a friend. Thats what he wants thats what hes going to get. And then if he decides that he wants all of Lys, then it will be ALL, we are dating, and thats it- nomore wishy washy, bull b/c im tired. Tired of not knowing, tired of being played, tired of dealing with this crap - it hardly seems worth it. Soo, im done!
Furthermore frustration, I dont want all the attention that I am currently getting from the opposite sex(not saying that it isnt flattering- b/c it is but) I dont get it, and I dont know how to handle it. It's not very fair to whoever may come along looking to me for affection. I think I am just going to enjoy being single for a while- I mean guys are nice and fun and its good to have one, but right now i dont think I am ready ... so the single life is where im going to be for a while- at least until I find someone that can truly measure up, and be everything i need. I know its a lot, but I know he is out there- Ive already found one that has everything necessary except for one thing- is willing to be with me, now.
Oh well- thats life I guess...
Im off like a dirty shirt
~ Lys
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Date!
Yea, so Johnny asked me to hang out tonight. And I said yes, cuz hes cool people. But then when its time to pay - i discover that this is officially a date! So that was interesting. I mean I had a good time but im not sure how ready I am for dating much less a relationship. Also, Im not about to get into a rebound relationship nor am I about to get with someone just because he's there. I didnt really get that "feeling" tonight. Dont get me wrong- hes a great guy but i dont see anything happening between us. I could be wrong but well see. He asked me out again- this time atleast I know its a date. :-P. So, i figured i'd give him a shot - I try anything twice right( this is #2 Johnny's date). We are hanging out on thursday - hopefully itll be good times and not too uncomfortable. OK well, im mad tired, so im gonna turn in... ill write more tomorrow.
<3 Out like a light...
Marilys
<3 Out like a light...
Marilys
Monday, September 05, 2005
its been a while...
Wow, this is my first post in almost a month... I dont know if I have ANY readers, much less loyal readers but to both I say.... Whhhhhhhy?! haha.
Anyway, I've been extremely busy: packing, saying good bye, moving, moving in, setting up, shopping, and doing just everything that I never had a moment to write anything. But now that I am in MY apartment on 33rd in philly and everything is set up as much as it can be I figured I take a minute and write in this thingy. Hokay so... I moved into my apartment and its a crazy bright yellow and my curtains are yellow, orange and magenta- its crazy bright and I get mocking comments like - "Ill be right back, i think i need to get my sunglasses", and "does it need to be plugged in?" but w/e cuz I luuv my room! My bed, end table, dresser, and table and chairs are set up so its pretty hot! I still need a desk, and shelves and hand towels for the bathroom and itchen and also a bathmat so that the floor doesnt get all wet, but all in all- I really like my apartment! The only thing is that living alone can get kind of boring - but the guys in my building are really nice and i know a bunch of people that live mad close to me so im not too worried - I am sure I'll be fine! :-D.
Anyway Him and I decided to be just friends and that lasted for what? 4 days- Ha we are pathetic. But I dont know whats going to happen now - maybe we just needed to get that out of our systems. We've been hanging out a lot these past few days and its as if we are together or whatever except without the physical aspect of it so im not really sure whats goign to happen from here but what ever - as I've said before Que sera, sera - Im not going to fight it and Im not going to take anytihng too seriously this way I dont get hurt. But as soon as I saw Him on thursday I wanted to jump his effin bones -haha, of course I restrained myself - but it was hard! So when we finally did make a movement in that direction I couldnt hold back anymore. And I have to say it was amazing! but now I am very confused and unsure of what id going to happen and where it will go. But again - Que sera, sera.
Ok, new topic- hrrrmmmm...
My sister is here visiting and its good times- we painted yesterday and then Laura, Jason, and Jermaine came over to my apt and we chilled for a while and saw Jason and Jermaines house - good stuff. I tihnk my apartment is the nicest place out of anyones that ive seen thus far.
Oh and also, Laura is trying to organize a trip to ocean city- how sweet would that be? She wants to get Me, Mike, Jason, and whoever else together to drive down there and stay a couple nights - I thin kthat would be awesome! I hope it works out!
Ok well im off like a dirty shirt!
~ Lys
Anyway, I've been extremely busy: packing, saying good bye, moving, moving in, setting up, shopping, and doing just everything that I never had a moment to write anything. But now that I am in MY apartment on 33rd in philly and everything is set up as much as it can be I figured I take a minute and write in this thingy. Hokay so... I moved into my apartment and its a crazy bright yellow and my curtains are yellow, orange and magenta- its crazy bright and I get mocking comments like - "Ill be right back, i think i need to get my sunglasses", and "does it need to be plugged in?" but w/e cuz I luuv my room! My bed, end table, dresser, and table and chairs are set up so its pretty hot! I still need a desk, and shelves and hand towels for the bathroom and itchen and also a bathmat so that the floor doesnt get all wet, but all in all- I really like my apartment! The only thing is that living alone can get kind of boring - but the guys in my building are really nice and i know a bunch of people that live mad close to me so im not too worried - I am sure I'll be fine! :-D.
Anyway Him and I decided to be just friends and that lasted for what? 4 days- Ha we are pathetic. But I dont know whats going to happen now - maybe we just needed to get that out of our systems. We've been hanging out a lot these past few days and its as if we are together or whatever except without the physical aspect of it so im not really sure whats goign to happen from here but what ever - as I've said before Que sera, sera - Im not going to fight it and Im not going to take anytihng too seriously this way I dont get hurt. But as soon as I saw Him on thursday I wanted to jump his effin bones -haha, of course I restrained myself - but it was hard! So when we finally did make a movement in that direction I couldnt hold back anymore. And I have to say it was amazing! but now I am very confused and unsure of what id going to happen and where it will go. But again - Que sera, sera.
Ok, new topic- hrrrmmmm...
My sister is here visiting and its good times- we painted yesterday and then Laura, Jason, and Jermaine came over to my apt and we chilled for a while and saw Jason and Jermaines house - good stuff. I tihnk my apartment is the nicest place out of anyones that ive seen thus far.
Oh and also, Laura is trying to organize a trip to ocean city- how sweet would that be? She wants to get Me, Mike, Jason, and whoever else together to drive down there and stay a couple nights - I thin kthat would be awesome! I hope it works out!
Ok well im off like a dirty shirt!
~ Lys
Friday, August 19, 2005
Pleasing myself!
Oh man, it seems that no matter what I do there is always someone that isnt happy.
I cant please everyone, and I hate that someone is alwats mad at me or at least unsatisfied. It sux. I think from now on I will just try to please myself. As selfish as that sounds, if in trying to please everyone I dont get anything that I want and people STILL arent happy, then what is the point. I mean I am not goign to do anytihng to diliberately bother anyone else but I am not going out of my way to do anything for anyone anymore. Its not worth it.
Im peacing out!
Marilys
I cant please everyone, and I hate that someone is alwats mad at me or at least unsatisfied. It sux. I think from now on I will just try to please myself. As selfish as that sounds, if in trying to please everyone I dont get anything that I want and people STILL arent happy, then what is the point. I mean I am not goign to do anytihng to diliberately bother anyone else but I am not going out of my way to do anything for anyone anymore. Its not worth it.
Im peacing out!
Marilys
Monday, August 15, 2005
Philly, home and LOVE
I went to Philly last Wednesday and Mike came home with me on Friday and he left on Sunday. It was awesome to see him, he makes it seem like everything is OK and nothing can hurt me or bring me down.
While I was in Philly I saw my apartment which was awesome - i got the measurements so i can make sure that the furniture will fit and that everything will be awesome in there. I also have to figure out the colors for my room. While I was there I hung out with Nicole for a little while, too; it was really nice to see her shes such kewl people. I love Philly so much, it was just nice to be there. It was also amazing to see my baby. When I arrived he was just getting off of work and we were silly and arranged to meet at town hall - a HUGE building and we were on opposite sides. The way it ended was that we met at the fountain in the front of the building it was soo sweet. He was wearing his SEIU shirt - this ugly purple and yellow shirt. NOw, if you have ever seen the movie Empire Records - the part when AJ tells Cory that he realized how much he loved her when he saw her in that skirt that he hated and he thought to himself "if I can love her in that skirt, that skirt that I hate, it must be real"; that was the exact thing that went thru my mind when i saw him that day. He was wearing this Ugly shirt, but all the love i have for him just came flooding back to me at that fountain. I love him so much but I never felt it as strongly as i did that day, that moment in front of the fountain.
... anyway, now that the world knows the extent of my love for this man, i can continue on with the details of the 5 days we spent. After we got together we went to his place and made sweet sweet .... dinner - we made rosemary crusted shrimp over pasta with a ligh fettucini sauce; it was delicious. The next day (thursday), he had to work so I went into the city and walked around, and we met up for lunch and then i went to my apartment and took the measurements. Mike and I went to Cosi for lunch - it was awesome! Thursday night we went to the gym - it was nuce to be at a real gym instead of the one at Trinity which Stinks.
On Friday, Mike had to work as well so in the morning i hung out in university city and met up with Nicole and lent her my black dress - the strapless one with the Red tule on the bottem, i love that dress. Then for lunch we met up again and we went to Mad for Mex - sooo good! And in the Afternoon I went canvasing - eeerrr i waited in the car for him while he went canvasing lol I helped a little bit but i couldnt really do anything significant. But it was nice to just spend time with him. Then on Friday after Mike finished work we took our stuff and went to the belgiem waffle place and got a bubble tea - goood EATS! When we got to the city we caught a improv comedy show - it was only ok, but it was good to spend time together.
On sat, we went to the beach OH MAN that was awesome! Poor boy got a lil sun burn :-( but its ok it was amazing anyway. Then we hung out and ended up going to see must love dogs at broadway theater - it was soo cute. Then we fell asleep in the living room on the floor together - that was nice. Then on sunday we woke up semi-early and he had to go home early enuf so that he could spend time with him mom before she left for Atlanta, which i totally understand, but i wish he coulda stayed longer.
It was so nice to see him and spend time with him. It always is. He made me promise that even if we arent romantically involved that we stay in touch and stay friends always - and I did. I just wonder if we will keep that promise and if we will be able to ever NOT be involved in someway and if it would be wierd if we arent. The way i see it is the only way that He and I wont be involved romantically is if one of us has another significant other. But I doubt that we will give eachother the space to GET involved with another person and thus keeping the only possibile way of ending our relationship from ever happening in the first place. Well i am sure that what ever happens, it will be ok. always <3
Que Sera, sera...
Marilys
While I was in Philly I saw my apartment which was awesome - i got the measurements so i can make sure that the furniture will fit and that everything will be awesome in there. I also have to figure out the colors for my room. While I was there I hung out with Nicole for a little while, too; it was really nice to see her shes such kewl people. I love Philly so much, it was just nice to be there. It was also amazing to see my baby. When I arrived he was just getting off of work and we were silly and arranged to meet at town hall - a HUGE building and we were on opposite sides. The way it ended was that we met at the fountain in the front of the building it was soo sweet. He was wearing his SEIU shirt - this ugly purple and yellow shirt. NOw, if you have ever seen the movie Empire Records - the part when AJ tells Cory that he realized how much he loved her when he saw her in that skirt that he hated and he thought to himself "if I can love her in that skirt, that skirt that I hate, it must be real"; that was the exact thing that went thru my mind when i saw him that day. He was wearing this Ugly shirt, but all the love i have for him just came flooding back to me at that fountain. I love him so much but I never felt it as strongly as i did that day, that moment in front of the fountain.
... anyway, now that the world knows the extent of my love for this man, i can continue on with the details of the 5 days we spent. After we got together we went to his place and made sweet sweet .... dinner - we made rosemary crusted shrimp over pasta with a ligh fettucini sauce; it was delicious. The next day (thursday), he had to work so I went into the city and walked around, and we met up for lunch and then i went to my apartment and took the measurements. Mike and I went to Cosi for lunch - it was awesome! Thursday night we went to the gym - it was nuce to be at a real gym instead of the one at Trinity which Stinks.
On Friday, Mike had to work as well so in the morning i hung out in university city and met up with Nicole and lent her my black dress - the strapless one with the Red tule on the bottem, i love that dress. Then for lunch we met up again and we went to Mad for Mex - sooo good! And in the Afternoon I went canvasing - eeerrr i waited in the car for him while he went canvasing lol I helped a little bit but i couldnt really do anything significant. But it was nice to just spend time with him. Then on Friday after Mike finished work we took our stuff and went to the belgiem waffle place and got a bubble tea - goood EATS! When we got to the city we caught a improv comedy show - it was only ok, but it was good to spend time together.
On sat, we went to the beach OH MAN that was awesome! Poor boy got a lil sun burn :-( but its ok it was amazing anyway. Then we hung out and ended up going to see must love dogs at broadway theater - it was soo cute. Then we fell asleep in the living room on the floor together - that was nice. Then on sunday we woke up semi-early and he had to go home early enuf so that he could spend time with him mom before she left for Atlanta, which i totally understand, but i wish he coulda stayed longer.
It was so nice to see him and spend time with him. It always is. He made me promise that even if we arent romantically involved that we stay in touch and stay friends always - and I did. I just wonder if we will keep that promise and if we will be able to ever NOT be involved in someway and if it would be wierd if we arent. The way i see it is the only way that He and I wont be involved romantically is if one of us has another significant other. But I doubt that we will give eachother the space to GET involved with another person and thus keeping the only possibile way of ending our relationship from ever happening in the first place. Well i am sure that what ever happens, it will be ok. always <3
Que Sera, sera...
Marilys
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
I am home and its kewl but I AM so excited to be moving into my apartment!! Wooo. I am all about decoraing it, its going to be so awesome. I think i am going to do an underwater theme in my bathroom Lookie lookie : http://www.getdecorating.com/image.cfm?theme=14&browse=int&master=21758&page=1&CFID=3517641&CFTOKEN=74270278#1 << that was my inspiration but i think i am going to do a little more colorful fish so its a bit more tropical and bright. And I love the idea of painting on the ceiling like it is the top of the water! OOOH, I am so excited! In the bedroom/living room i am going to make the walls yellow and then add red and orange circles and squares on one wall. The kitchen I think will be mostly green and blue with a little bit of yellow as well. I think my apartment is goign to be awesome. I was looking around for furniture, decorations, paints, and curtains, sheets and comfortors. I cant even describe how excited I am.
I am also soo excited to go to philly tomorrow. I am going to get my apartments measurements, and then hang out with Mike and see Nicole for a while. When we come back to NY we will be going to a comedy show in the city when i get back. And then on Sat we are going to the beach and then a hotel party at night! This is going to be AWESOME! :-D
well im out
Marilys
I am also soo excited to go to philly tomorrow. I am going to get my apartments measurements, and then hang out with Mike and see Nicole for a while. When we come back to NY we will be going to a comedy show in the city when i get back. And then on Sat we are going to the beach and then a hotel party at night! This is going to be AWESOME! :-D
well im out
Marilys
Sunday, August 07, 2005
Home and then back to Philly
im HOME! Its soo nice. I love being home. I went out to long beach last night with Jess, Jen, Julian, and Brian. We walked along the board walk and hit up the 24 hr. bagel at 2 am. It was good times! The boardwalk is always an adventure - we met this guy that was harassing this couple and decided to ask him where the bagel place was. He gave us directions and when we decided to try to find it we couldnt so we thought that our theory of him being a psycho was confirmed. But after asking 4 other people for directions - one being a limo driver that said "I dont know where it is, but I'll take you there" and proceeded to wink at me, we found that the psycho really DID know where 24 bagel is. Jess, Jen, and I also drove around for bout 20 minutes calling every guy and his brother to try to find somewhere/ something to do at 3am. Haha. We failed miserably - nothing was happening. Oh well, it doesnt matter we had fun anyway.
So, im going to Philly on Wednesday. That is going to be fun! I am going to get to see my apartment and figure out what I need and what furniture can fit in there. ITs going to be awesome. I am also going to see Mike - i am sure that will be intersting, to say the least. But then friday night, Mike is coming to NY with me. WOoo this is going to be crazy good times. :-D
well im off like a dirty shirt...
Marilys
So, im going to Philly on Wednesday. That is going to be fun! I am going to get to see my apartment and figure out what I need and what furniture can fit in there. ITs going to be awesome. I am also going to see Mike - i am sure that will be intersting, to say the least. But then friday night, Mike is coming to NY with me. WOoo this is going to be crazy good times. :-D
well im off like a dirty shirt...
Marilys
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Me: a butterfly (soon)
Not too long ago, I created my cocoon.
But before that I was a lowly caterpiller: eating a lot, mosying around, not really knowing what I wanted to become, or where I was really headed. When the time came, I was forced to think about it and decide. That is when I was on my own and practically cut off from any influential force so that I can decide for myself and not let others do it for me.
Since then i have decided where and how I want to end up, what type of person I want to be, and who I want around me. So I am in my cocoon, undergoing metamorphasis. Although this process has been underway for a short while now, the true transformation has just begun. All this time i had been brainstorming, but now that I know the answers, I am able to floow thru and find what I want. Granted, some of the harder questions, I fear, will not be answered until I emerge a new person - a better person. Until then, I am focusing on what I do know.
I know who I want to be : A strong, unique, independent, caring, happy, successful woman.
I know where I want to end up: In NY, working doing sometihng I love, not having to worry about money, with a man that I love and that loves me, with a family of my own, and my extended family close both physically and emotionally.
I know who i want around me: Other strong, independent, upbeat, funny, and interesting people that are there for me no matter what. (Alex, my mom, my sister, Mike)
I dont know how I am going to get there. The exact path is one that I plan on enjoying yet it is unknown. I am sure that however I travel to get where I want to be, I will enjoy the trip because the fun isnt ending up where you are going; it is the great journey surrounded by those you love.
I dont know who is going to support me througout my journey. We'll see.
expression is a beautiful thing.
Metamorphisis is a necessary part of life.
<3 Marilys
But before that I was a lowly caterpiller: eating a lot, mosying around, not really knowing what I wanted to become, or where I was really headed. When the time came, I was forced to think about it and decide. That is when I was on my own and practically cut off from any influential force so that I can decide for myself and not let others do it for me.
Since then i have decided where and how I want to end up, what type of person I want to be, and who I want around me. So I am in my cocoon, undergoing metamorphasis. Although this process has been underway for a short while now, the true transformation has just begun. All this time i had been brainstorming, but now that I know the answers, I am able to floow thru and find what I want. Granted, some of the harder questions, I fear, will not be answered until I emerge a new person - a better person. Until then, I am focusing on what I do know.
I know who I want to be : A strong, unique, independent, caring, happy, successful woman.
I know where I want to end up: In NY, working doing sometihng I love, not having to worry about money, with a man that I love and that loves me, with a family of my own, and my extended family close both physically and emotionally.
I know who i want around me: Other strong, independent, upbeat, funny, and interesting people that are there for me no matter what. (Alex, my mom, my sister, Mike)
I dont know how I am going to get there. The exact path is one that I plan on enjoying yet it is unknown. I am sure that however I travel to get where I want to be, I will enjoy the trip because the fun isnt ending up where you are going; it is the great journey surrounded by those you love.
I dont know who is going to support me througout my journey. We'll see.
expression is a beautiful thing.
Metamorphisis is a necessary part of life.
<3 Marilys
Saturday, July 30, 2005
broken beyond repair
Im so excited. But I have a feeling this is gonna hurt real bad.
I have an idea of how this will turn out.
But what Can i do? cant change your mind, baby.
Its not up to me, maybe everythings not fine and maybe nothings alright.
I just wish there was something I could do to Make you see, make you understand
its not gonna work like this; Somethings got to change.
Its breaking my heart beyond beating; It's broken beyond repair.
I cant stand this pain, cant stand it anymore.
I want it, I need it. There is nothing right, but nothings quite wrong.
I dont know what I want. I dont know what to do. I dont understand what you want.
I dont know why we are how we are. I dont even know if its that bad.
You make me question everything. Is it real Are you true and How is this possible?
Its all there, except for that necessary link. Can that be? Is that right?
Why is this a mess and how to fix it? Can it be fixed? Do you want to fix it? Do I want to?
I have no idea anymore. Where to go from here. What to do from here.
Its always better when we're together, but thats never. Im not sure if it will return ever.
I am lost with out you, i need you . I feel you when your not there, I want you.
I Cant be without you - the hurts too fierce.
Tell me what to do; I will do anything cuz I cant stand being without you.
I have an idea of how this will turn out.
But what Can i do? cant change your mind, baby.
Its not up to me, maybe everythings not fine and maybe nothings alright.
I just wish there was something I could do to Make you see, make you understand
its not gonna work like this; Somethings got to change.
Its breaking my heart beyond beating; It's broken beyond repair.
I cant stand this pain, cant stand it anymore.
I want it, I need it. There is nothing right, but nothings quite wrong.
I dont know what I want. I dont know what to do. I dont understand what you want.
I dont know why we are how we are. I dont even know if its that bad.
You make me question everything. Is it real Are you true and How is this possible?
Its all there, except for that necessary link. Can that be? Is that right?
Why is this a mess and how to fix it? Can it be fixed? Do you want to fix it? Do I want to?
I have no idea anymore. Where to go from here. What to do from here.
Its always better when we're together, but thats never. Im not sure if it will return ever.
I am lost with out you, i need you . I feel you when your not there, I want you.
I Cant be without you - the hurts too fierce.
Tell me what to do; I will do anything cuz I cant stand being without you.
Monday, July 25, 2005
mindless sputter
Wow ... today was soo long. It is so nice to be in my room listening to music just chillin.
Oh man this weekend was crazy! Friday i SLEPT early and then late into the day - it was awesome and much necessary. Thursday, Martina, Hannah Elyse and I went to dinner: sushi - it was delish! Then we went to go see wedding Crashers great movie - SEE IT! We didnt get back until like 330 and by the time we went to bet it was like 4 so yea 3 hours of sleep is a BAD idea - I was beat on Friday- thats why I just went to sleep!
Sat I hung out with Akil and Matt and we saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It was very trippy- of course it didnt help that I was a lil delirious. BUt that was a very funny movie too. Definately worth Renting when it comes out on video. Then Sat night everyone went to Kelli's birthday. It was good times! We partied, we danced, we were Merry! haha. Paul - this guy that used to work at ESF gave me his number and asked me for mine - he is soo cute and "a great guy" according to Kristen and Emily. I dont know, maybe he'll call but i dot know if anything will happen... well see. But at the end of the night Germaine walked me back to my room and tried to get with me. I was like oh man what is going on... "come back when Im awake" and he was like ok. I was like wow Such a bad idea! I felt so violated and taken advantage of and OFFENDED - I was not in my right mind, AT ALL! Hello!!! Eeek. And all I wanted to do was call HIM, but his phone was dead so that sucked! Whatever. Things happen :-/.
I spoke to HIM yesterday tho, and his mom is going to Atlanta and I think I am going to try to visit during the week and then he can come home with me that weekend - It would be awesome! I hope it happens. I hate to think that we will just cease to exist. He asked me what I think will happen the next time we see eachother. And i was like I have noo idea. I am not going to say anything is NOT going to happen but nor am I going to PLAN any course of action. I mean what ever happens, happens. And HE was like oh, man. You know what that means - the flood gates were just opned and there is no stopping it now. I was like we'll see. I am not going to say anytihng yet. But I think that we both know exactly what will happen. The feelings are there - there is no doubt about that. SO i mean from there it is out of our hands, in my opinion. Things are going to happen and there is nothing either of us can do about. I think that the only way that things DONT happen is if either of us has another person in the picture(who knows, it could happen). Honestly, i think that it going tobe like that for a while. I mean I dont want to just be his friend when he doesnt have a girl and when he does he drops me like a hot potato or vice versa. But seriously I dont see it that we could Just be friends - even if we are seeing eachother more often - like during school. Its going to be too easy to do stuff - ESPECIALLY if we still feel the way we do - and we both admitted that those feelings are not going anywhere as far as we can see. ALWAYS
But I guess for now... we have to wait and see.
Lady in waiting...
*Marilys*
Oh man this weekend was crazy! Friday i SLEPT early and then late into the day - it was awesome and much necessary. Thursday, Martina, Hannah Elyse and I went to dinner: sushi - it was delish! Then we went to go see wedding Crashers great movie - SEE IT! We didnt get back until like 330 and by the time we went to bet it was like 4 so yea 3 hours of sleep is a BAD idea - I was beat on Friday- thats why I just went to sleep!
Sat I hung out with Akil and Matt and we saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It was very trippy- of course it didnt help that I was a lil delirious. BUt that was a very funny movie too. Definately worth Renting when it comes out on video. Then Sat night everyone went to Kelli's birthday. It was good times! We partied, we danced, we were Merry! haha. Paul - this guy that used to work at ESF gave me his number and asked me for mine - he is soo cute and "a great guy" according to Kristen and Emily. I dont know, maybe he'll call but i dot know if anything will happen... well see. But at the end of the night Germaine walked me back to my room and tried to get with me. I was like oh man what is going on... "come back when Im awake" and he was like ok. I was like wow Such a bad idea! I felt so violated and taken advantage of and OFFENDED - I was not in my right mind, AT ALL! Hello!!! Eeek. And all I wanted to do was call HIM, but his phone was dead so that sucked! Whatever. Things happen :-/.
I spoke to HIM yesterday tho, and his mom is going to Atlanta and I think I am going to try to visit during the week and then he can come home with me that weekend - It would be awesome! I hope it happens. I hate to think that we will just cease to exist. He asked me what I think will happen the next time we see eachother. And i was like I have noo idea. I am not going to say anything is NOT going to happen but nor am I going to PLAN any course of action. I mean what ever happens, happens. And HE was like oh, man. You know what that means - the flood gates were just opned and there is no stopping it now. I was like we'll see. I am not going to say anytihng yet. But I think that we both know exactly what will happen. The feelings are there - there is no doubt about that. SO i mean from there it is out of our hands, in my opinion. Things are going to happen and there is nothing either of us can do about. I think that the only way that things DONT happen is if either of us has another person in the picture(who knows, it could happen). Honestly, i think that it going tobe like that for a while. I mean I dont want to just be his friend when he doesnt have a girl and when he does he drops me like a hot potato or vice versa. But seriously I dont see it that we could Just be friends - even if we are seeing eachother more often - like during school. Its going to be too easy to do stuff - ESPECIALLY if we still feel the way we do - and we both admitted that those feelings are not going anywhere as far as we can see. ALWAYS
But I guess for now... we have to wait and see.
Lady in waiting...
*Marilys*
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
awesome people
Some people are perfect to just talk to. They always help me sort my thoughts and feelings out- and they are usually the ones that don't say much yet are very reassuring in what they DO say. Thank you!
What is my love-life like? - That was the question. Sheesh. - That was my answer.
I love him, I know that much for sure (then again, so does everyone that isnt blind or completely dense) and those feelings are not going anywhere and there is nothing I can do about that. And seeing HIM this weekend, as I previously mentioned, defiantely did NOT help maintain or even set the foundation for the whole Friends-only thing. We bearly skipped a beat - it was as if we were utterly and completely together again. {{ I think it took us a matter of 3 blocks to realize and accept that we arent "just friends" and arent going to act like it}}
I have no idea what is going to happen come september, but again I really cant deal with this limbo BS. I know that right now distance was/is a factor in our decision to not be together, but HE also mentioned that he doesnt want to get back together in the fall. I understand that it is college and we are supposed to experience new things and go thru all sorts of stuff. But I dont understad what we are or why this is so difficult. In my opinion, if there is love, everything else will follow. Apparently though, for some {{for you}} love isnt enough. That makes me hurt so deeply. When we were good (no drama) I felt on top of the world, like nothing can bring me down. And it wasnt even like everything was perfect - we were just there holding eachother up, letting us fall. It was amazing! I miss that and fear that I will never find it again with anyone else and I dont want to let you slip away. I am never as happy as I am when I am with you. Everything is alway better when we are together. But one of the worst things about love and relationships is that although it takes two people to make it work, it only takes one person to end it. ::shrug:: I really hope things work out. I need things to work out. I dont want to imagine a life without you and me. I Love you! What more do you want from me? is there anything else I can possible offer?! I am giving you all of me, and if that isnt enough, nothing will ever be. I am sorry - I Love you. Always and unconditionally.
What is my love-life like? - That was the question. Sheesh. - That was my answer.
I love him, I know that much for sure (then again, so does everyone that isnt blind or completely dense) and those feelings are not going anywhere and there is nothing I can do about that. And seeing HIM this weekend, as I previously mentioned, defiantely did NOT help maintain or even set the foundation for the whole Friends-only thing. We bearly skipped a beat - it was as if we were utterly and completely together again. {{ I think it took us a matter of 3 blocks to realize and accept that we arent "just friends" and arent going to act like it}}
I have no idea what is going to happen come september, but again I really cant deal with this limbo BS. I know that right now distance was/is a factor in our decision to not be together, but HE also mentioned that he doesnt want to get back together in the fall. I understand that it is college and we are supposed to experience new things and go thru all sorts of stuff. But I dont understad what we are or why this is so difficult. In my opinion, if there is love, everything else will follow. Apparently though, for some {{for you}} love isnt enough. That makes me hurt so deeply. When we were good (no drama) I felt on top of the world, like nothing can bring me down. And it wasnt even like everything was perfect - we were just there holding eachother up, letting us fall. It was amazing! I miss that and fear that I will never find it again with anyone else and I dont want to let you slip away. I am never as happy as I am when I am with you. Everything is alway better when we are together. But one of the worst things about love and relationships is that although it takes two people to make it work, it only takes one person to end it. ::shrug:: I really hope things work out. I need things to work out. I dont want to imagine a life without you and me. I Love you! What more do you want from me? is there anything else I can possible offer?! I am giving you all of me, and if that isnt enough, nothing will ever be. I am sorry - I Love you. Always and unconditionally.
Monday, July 18, 2005
no drama TG but so confuzled
Wow, Ok so its Monday and I just got back to Hartford last night (I went to philly for the weekend). Philly was AWESOME!! Thank you especially to Jason and to Mike.
Anyway, thankfully there was no drama on Friday night when we were all parting but even before that Mike and I, although we agreed that we are just friends, ended up getting together and were acting kind of flirty all weekend. I am not saying that I minded but I am so confused - I dont know what to do/not do, how to act or what to think - if we are just friends we can NOT do that. I mean I love him I really do, but I really cant understand this Limbo quasi relatiosnhip nor do I want to deal with it. I mean is it that difficult to decide ? Either we are together or we are not? If we are not together, then there is not anything going on between us. I am not saying that the feelings have to simply evaporate - because I know that isnt possible! But I am saying that there is no way that I can keep going on doing stuff with him and acting like a couple when we are together and then saying that we aren't when we are apart. If we ARE together, then we are together ALL the time and there is noone else. I dont really see what the complications are. I mean I understand that it is college and we should be free and not tied down or too serious right now but this is so frustrating. My mind is simple when it comes to this. What is the problem? We deserve the happiness that we bring eachother. I know that there are times that are not great and all happy but that comes with any and all relationships - friendships, romances, and families- and not just some; each and every relationship has some rocky points - it is the process of working thru that, which makes the relationship amazing. Now, I am not blaming him but nor am I fully taking the blame for our current situation - I just with there was some consistancy of and some mutual understanding of our status.
Aaaaaaanywaaaay ... Camp was sooo exausting today. All of my kids were here today (thats 18 of them) and there were multiple instances that I was alone with ALL of them. Now there are supposed to be 3 counselors for each group, and understandably there are times when one of us has to go run an errand, bring a kid somwhere, find a director, etc. and so that leaves 2. BUT our groups 3rd counselor is more like an extra camper than a 3rd counselor - more trouble than she is worth. SO for example, today after my kids were done changing after swimming, i was outside helping 17 7&8 year-olds put on and tie their shoes - ALONE! I was PISSED. That is not right. Luckily, Melissa and Cari (the directors) told me that they are working of fixing my situation and I dont know what they are doing but anything to help would be nice, AND FAST!
OK well i am all chlorine-y, so I am going to shower...
peace and love,
Marilys
Anyway, thankfully there was no drama on Friday night when we were all parting but even before that Mike and I, although we agreed that we are just friends, ended up getting together and were acting kind of flirty all weekend. I am not saying that I minded but I am so confused - I dont know what to do/not do, how to act or what to think - if we are just friends we can NOT do that. I mean I love him I really do, but I really cant understand this Limbo quasi relatiosnhip nor do I want to deal with it. I mean is it that difficult to decide ? Either we are together or we are not? If we are not together, then there is not anything going on between us. I am not saying that the feelings have to simply evaporate - because I know that isnt possible! But I am saying that there is no way that I can keep going on doing stuff with him and acting like a couple when we are together and then saying that we aren't when we are apart. If we ARE together, then we are together ALL the time and there is noone else. I dont really see what the complications are. I mean I understand that it is college and we should be free and not tied down or too serious right now but this is so frustrating. My mind is simple when it comes to this. What is the problem? We deserve the happiness that we bring eachother. I know that there are times that are not great and all happy but that comes with any and all relationships - friendships, romances, and families- and not just some; each and every relationship has some rocky points - it is the process of working thru that, which makes the relationship amazing. Now, I am not blaming him but nor am I fully taking the blame for our current situation - I just with there was some consistancy of and some mutual understanding of our status.
Aaaaaaanywaaaay ... Camp was sooo exausting today. All of my kids were here today (thats 18 of them) and there were multiple instances that I was alone with ALL of them. Now there are supposed to be 3 counselors for each group, and understandably there are times when one of us has to go run an errand, bring a kid somwhere, find a director, etc. and so that leaves 2. BUT our groups 3rd counselor is more like an extra camper than a 3rd counselor - more trouble than she is worth. SO for example, today after my kids were done changing after swimming, i was outside helping 17 7&8 year-olds put on and tie their shoes - ALONE! I was PISSED. That is not right. Luckily, Melissa and Cari (the directors) told me that they are working of fixing my situation and I dont know what they are doing but anything to help would be nice, AND FAST!
OK well i am all chlorine-y, so I am going to shower...
peace and love,
Marilys
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Philly...
hey people, I am in Philly at Mikes house. Its really good to see him and yesterday we were at Jason's party which was AMAZING!! Wow great times - thanks Jason :-D!
Anyway, my ride here was sooooo long, Oh well. But I am DEFINATELY not looking forward to the trip home. eeek - another 6/7 hour bus ride, here I come. Hahahah.
Oh man, I wonder how camp was for Martina on Friday being that I wasnt there and Milka is never a help (not to be mean but I really have to say that she not cut out to be a counselor or anything like this). I hope that Cari and Melissa did SOMETHING to help the poor girl - with Tyler, TJ, Chrishawn, and Kejuan - I know i would want to shoot something if I was alone with them. Random thought:: I missed payday - i get my check on monday - wooo! ::: End of random thought. I wonder how thier teachers deal with them all year long - it is only going to be week 3 and I am counting down the days. But then again, Kids like Manny and Eduardo definately make this a great job. Also knowing that I am helping these kids from this inner-city, urban area - especially the "bad" ones is extremely rewarding - thats something. And the ESF team is awesome - that also makes this job boatloads of fun! :-D
OK well Mike and I made this pie/cake with peanutbutter and chocolate pudding and caramel with a graham cracker crust and he is bugging me to go try it, so I am checking out like a nerd at the library. ;-)
*Marilys*
Anyway, my ride here was sooooo long, Oh well. But I am DEFINATELY not looking forward to the trip home. eeek - another 6/7 hour bus ride, here I come. Hahahah.
Oh man, I wonder how camp was for Martina on Friday being that I wasnt there and Milka is never a help (not to be mean but I really have to say that she not cut out to be a counselor or anything like this). I hope that Cari and Melissa did SOMETHING to help the poor girl - with Tyler, TJ, Chrishawn, and Kejuan - I know i would want to shoot something if I was alone with them. Random thought:: I missed payday - i get my check on monday - wooo! ::: End of random thought. I wonder how thier teachers deal with them all year long - it is only going to be week 3 and I am counting down the days. But then again, Kids like Manny and Eduardo definately make this a great job. Also knowing that I am helping these kids from this inner-city, urban area - especially the "bad" ones is extremely rewarding - thats something. And the ESF team is awesome - that also makes this job boatloads of fun! :-D
OK well Mike and I made this pie/cake with peanutbutter and chocolate pudding and caramel with a graham cracker crust and he is bugging me to go try it, so I am checking out like a nerd at the library. ;-)
*Marilys*
Thursday, July 14, 2005
stuff ...
Hey all
Camp was decent today, but can you believe they switched one of our counselors?! It is sooo whack! and to top it all off, I know Elyse was amazing and all but Milka- the new one, is HORRIBLE! She made phone calls through out the day, didnt help get the kids in line, didnt help the specialists during class, and totally did whatever she wanted during swimming. UUUGH! It is unacceptale. Luckly, our directors are amazing so they are taking care of it. I think that by Monday there will be a new counselor addition to the team. I hope that we get Elyse back and the Quinnapaugs get the new person! We will see... :-/
Tonight im excited to go to Club BLue tonight, with the rest of th staff - I think it will be AWESOME!! :-D
I am not going to camp tomorrow, I am going to Philly. That is gonna be a hella trip. I am looking forward to seeing everyone but I am NOT looking forward to the hour trip. I'll have my music and my book to entertain me - thats something atleast.
oK well I REEEEK! So i am going to shower...
Off like a dirty shirt
Marilys!
Camp was decent today, but can you believe they switched one of our counselors?! It is sooo whack! and to top it all off, I know Elyse was amazing and all but Milka- the new one, is HORRIBLE! She made phone calls through out the day, didnt help get the kids in line, didnt help the specialists during class, and totally did whatever she wanted during swimming. UUUGH! It is unacceptale. Luckly, our directors are amazing so they are taking care of it. I think that by Monday there will be a new counselor addition to the team. I hope that we get Elyse back and the Quinnapaugs get the new person! We will see... :-/
Tonight im excited to go to Club BLue tonight, with the rest of th staff - I think it will be AWESOME!! :-D
I am not going to camp tomorrow, I am going to Philly. That is gonna be a hella trip. I am looking forward to seeing everyone but I am NOT looking forward to the hour trip. I'll have my music and my book to entertain me - thats something atleast.
oK well I REEEEK! So i am going to shower...
Off like a dirty shirt
Marilys!
Saturday, July 09, 2005
life... or something like that
So my voice is gone - 4 days of camp and no voice. My kids dont listen and they force me to yell and ive lost my voice. Sooo... i have decided i am no longer going to yell if they dont listen they get a warning, 3 warnings and they get a time out. It is that simple.
I am home from camp for the weekend, it should be fun times! And I got my ticket to go to philly next weekend! should be fun times there too. Exciting!! Ill be ther from Friday night, to sunday afternoon. Next challange finding a place to sleep sat. night.
Ok well my bed beckons
!Marilys!
I am home from camp for the weekend, it should be fun times! And I got my ticket to go to philly next weekend! should be fun times there too. Exciting!! Ill be ther from Friday night, to sunday afternoon. Next challange finding a place to sleep sat. night.
Ok well my bed beckons
!Marilys!
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
camp and other life stuff
Blah, I am EXAUSTED. My last two days have been everlasting. I am in Hartford, CT working at this EFS, Inc. Dream Camp as a counselor for the 7 & 8 year olds. Tuesday started at 7:00 and went until 6 and then today started at 7:30 and went until 5:15 and then we had a team meeting from 6:30 until 8 and they have just been soo packed- there is NEVER down time; we are always running somewhere and doing something. I am sooo strung out, my voice is starting to go from projecting, and my head in pounding from the constant, inescapable, intense volume levels. Oh man, I NEVER imagined kids could be as difficult as some of the kids that I have - its incredible! I feel like just leaving and crying in a corner sometimes. And i know my other 2 counselors are there and they are awesome most of the time, but sometimes I feel like i am the ONLY one there with the kids. I am extremly happy that i choose the 5 week program rather than the 10 Week prog b/c these 5 weeks are definately going to be enough; if i was doing 10 I would definately want to do sometihng drastic. :-/
Ok well that is the recap. Anything else of consequence that I remember I will add later.
Even though it is only 833 i think i am going to go to sleep soon. Haha...Oh man I miss the days when i could go to sleep at 4am and not have a care in the world.
Love love,
~*Marilys*~
Ok well that is the recap. Anything else of consequence that I remember I will add later.
Even though it is only 833 i think i am going to go to sleep soon. Haha...Oh man I miss the days when i could go to sleep at 4am and not have a care in the world.
Love love,
~*Marilys*~
Monday, July 04, 2005
uncensored and uneditted
ok: just a warning:::
Nothing in this blog is ever written to hurt or upset ANYONE especially those that I will be apt to hurt most often - Those that I love the most. And if you know me, you know that i am not a spiteful or hurtful person, that is the last thing i want to do - EVER.
This blog is completely uncensored and uneditted. So please do not be offended or anything like that. It is just exactly what is on my mind at that exact moment.
Nothing in this blog is ever written to hurt or upset ANYONE especially those that I will be apt to hurt most often - Those that I love the most. And if you know me, you know that i am not a spiteful or hurtful person, that is the last thing i want to do - EVER.
This blog is completely uncensored and uneditted. So please do not be offended or anything like that. It is just exactly what is on my mind at that exact moment.
Sunday, July 03, 2005
ugh... or something like it - Part 2
ok so, i want to go back to what I was sayin about Mike.
... so the last time he and I spoke seriously about our situation we decided that we are just friends with lingering feelings and that we will play-it-by-ear come fall and we're back in Philly.
Ugh, whats the point of loving someone or them loving me if it is to no consequence. If we arent together or wont admit to anyone else that the feelings are there? Like I hate this - I am censoring myself. I have no idea what changed so dramatically in less than 2 weeks. I mean my feelings havent changed and I cant get them to nor can I just forget- granted we had problems but is there a relationship that doesnt? No. We were so compatible.
This is like a horrible crush. One where I the big nerd is crushing on the popular guy that I totally cant get. One where I get butterflies anytime I see him. And one where my best friend told him that all about how I feel and he heard it and knows and then pretends to feel the same way. But THEN he runs and tells his friends and they laugh all about it and at mee together. I absolutly tears my heart in 2. But its infinatley worse because with this crush it would only be a one time thing but with my life every morning I wake up and I feel like that girl being laughed at by all the popular guys in school, and not only in the morning - anytime I see a couple, and anytime my phone rings, and anytime i hear specific songs, and whenever i am in bed awake. Its all the time - a constant pain in my heart away from you, missing you wanting you and then knowing that I cant have you, and prolly never will again.
Oh the times that we've had. The great things weve shared.
well im all out like a new release starring tom.
<3 Marilys
... so the last time he and I spoke seriously about our situation we decided that we are just friends with lingering feelings and that we will play-it-by-ear come fall and we're back in Philly.
Ugh, whats the point of loving someone or them loving me if it is to no consequence. If we arent together or wont admit to anyone else that the feelings are there? Like I hate this - I am censoring myself. I have no idea what changed so dramatically in less than 2 weeks. I mean my feelings havent changed and I cant get them to nor can I just forget- granted we had problems but is there a relationship that doesnt? No. We were so compatible.
This is like a horrible crush. One where I the big nerd is crushing on the popular guy that I totally cant get. One where I get butterflies anytime I see him. And one where my best friend told him that all about how I feel and he heard it and knows and then pretends to feel the same way. But THEN he runs and tells his friends and they laugh all about it and at mee together. I absolutly tears my heart in 2. But its infinatley worse because with this crush it would only be a one time thing but with my life every morning I wake up and I feel like that girl being laughed at by all the popular guys in school, and not only in the morning - anytime I see a couple, and anytime my phone rings, and anytime i hear specific songs, and whenever i am in bed awake. Its all the time - a constant pain in my heart away from you, missing you wanting you and then knowing that I cant have you, and prolly never will again.
Oh the times that we've had. The great things weve shared.
well im all out like a new release starring tom.
<3 Marilys
urg... or sumthing like that.
I am so excited I got my furniture for my apartment! woo, its soo pretty. I got a bed set; its simple but very nice. Its 3 pieces - the bed ( a full/dbl - nice size for 2 ppl ;-) wink wink, nudge nudge), a 2 drawer end table, and a 5 drawer bureau. Woot, good stuff. I also got a fold-down kitchen table, so it doesnt take up any space, and two bar-type kitchen stools so i can eat at a real table. :-) Yeehaah - I am on my way to a beautiful apartment! I am sooo happy, but i spent a buttload of money, that makes me not so happy but it was worth it! Totally worth it.
Oh, and best buy wants me to work there in August and Pete at IHOP told me he wants me to work there as extra coverage - which is awesome cuz it means $MONEY$ and discounts. :-D
So I was in Hartford, CT on friday for training and I go back on monday - first day is tuesday. I think its going to be good times but there arent that many people working there and those that are there are so much older than i am, so they go out drinking and stuff and I cant - very frustrating- esp considering that i WANT to go out with them. I think that ill prolly be home most weekends :-/ but thats ok. Over all i think this will be a good experience.
Matt this guy from camp wants to go to NY cuz hes never been so this weekend, he is going to drive me back home and in exchange hes gonna stay at my place and Ill give him the run of the city. Fun times :-)
Jason is having a party on the 15th of July so i am thinking that i can go to philly for that weekend but I dont want to be such a needy butt and be like- Jason can I stay at your place Sat night, too. Totally grub. But it wouldn't be worth it to just go there for friday night and then go back on sat or go home on Sat - SO expensive. I would love to see Mike and chill wit him over the Weekend but after our last important convo in which we decided that we are just friends with lingering feelings and in Sept well see where we are and especially because weve been awkward and not really talking to eachother - at least not like we did and he also isnt as verbal with his feelings as he was even 2 weeks ago(kind of makes me think) I think that might be a little wierd, but I may get a lil gutsy and ask anyway. I wonder if he is seeing anyone or has been with anyone. Does it make me pathetic that i think abou tthat all the time. I hope not. I dont tihnk so - i think it makes me in love. :-)
Well im off like a dirty shirt.
~ Marilys
Oh, and best buy wants me to work there in August and Pete at IHOP told me he wants me to work there as extra coverage - which is awesome cuz it means $MONEY$ and discounts. :-D
So I was in Hartford, CT on friday for training and I go back on monday - first day is tuesday. I think its going to be good times but there arent that many people working there and those that are there are so much older than i am, so they go out drinking and stuff and I cant - very frustrating- esp considering that i WANT to go out with them. I think that ill prolly be home most weekends :-/ but thats ok. Over all i think this will be a good experience.
Matt this guy from camp wants to go to NY cuz hes never been so this weekend, he is going to drive me back home and in exchange hes gonna stay at my place and Ill give him the run of the city. Fun times :-)
Jason is having a party on the 15th of July so i am thinking that i can go to philly for that weekend but I dont want to be such a needy butt and be like- Jason can I stay at your place Sat night, too. Totally grub. But it wouldn't be worth it to just go there for friday night and then go back on sat or go home on Sat - SO expensive. I would love to see Mike and chill wit him over the Weekend but after our last important convo in which we decided that we are just friends with lingering feelings and in Sept well see where we are and especially because weve been awkward and not really talking to eachother - at least not like we did and he also isnt as verbal with his feelings as he was even 2 weeks ago(kind of makes me think) I think that might be a little wierd, but I may get a lil gutsy and ask anyway. I wonder if he is seeing anyone or has been with anyone. Does it make me pathetic that i think abou tthat all the time. I hope not. I dont tihnk so - i think it makes me in love. :-)
Well im off like a dirty shirt.
~ Marilys
Sunday, June 26, 2005
sooo ...
So, I hung out with Rob today. I felt kind of bad because I couldnt stop wishing Mike was there. I am so sorry Rob for my incessant talk about him and I and our inconsistant situation, and for not just enjoying our time. I mean for goodness sake - even our venture into Micheal's was because of Mike. Hemp is my new past time btw - and because of it my fingers are raw (its kind of gross and painful). But anyway sorry Rob. And Mike I miss you more than you can possibly imagine.
I dont know what to do about this sitch with the other girl and i dont know what to tell him. It hurts to think that he is hooking up with another girl or even that he'd consider it and let it happen if it started. I know we said we are open but i never realized its full meaning or potential until he brought her up. And then he goes and waves it in my face by changing it in Facebook - Ouch, that one hurt. I got a little notice about it - i was like niiiiice, geee thanks >:o urg. I dont know what is right or wrong, what i can or cant say or even how to act being in an open relationship. and whats worse is that right now it doesnt even feel like we are open just that we arent close and that we havent seen eachother. I just love him so much that I am so twisted around in these emotions that i dont know which way is up - and being a strong, independant woman i really dont appreciate this feeling. Oh well I'll see him on tuesday and I hope this is all sorted out - of course it wont be but maybe we can atleast talk about it, but then again, maybe its better if we dont talk about it while im there; i dont want to spoil our time together or waste it arguing or mad at eachother.
Que sera, sera. What ever will be, will be. Let destiny and fate and mother nature run their course. God will set a way . --- all these say the same thing, so if all differnt beliefs convey this message, it must be accurate. So i am going to follow it too!
Good night ^_^
Marilys ~ Lys
I dont know what to do about this sitch with the other girl and i dont know what to tell him. It hurts to think that he is hooking up with another girl or even that he'd consider it and let it happen if it started. I know we said we are open but i never realized its full meaning or potential until he brought her up. And then he goes and waves it in my face by changing it in Facebook - Ouch, that one hurt. I got a little notice about it - i was like niiiiice, geee thanks >:o urg. I dont know what is right or wrong, what i can or cant say or even how to act being in an open relationship. and whats worse is that right now it doesnt even feel like we are open just that we arent close and that we havent seen eachother. I just love him so much that I am so twisted around in these emotions that i dont know which way is up - and being a strong, independant woman i really dont appreciate this feeling. Oh well I'll see him on tuesday and I hope this is all sorted out - of course it wont be but maybe we can atleast talk about it, but then again, maybe its better if we dont talk about it while im there; i dont want to spoil our time together or waste it arguing or mad at eachother.
Que sera, sera. What ever will be, will be. Let destiny and fate and mother nature run their course. God will set a way . --- all these say the same thing, so if all differnt beliefs convey this message, it must be accurate. So i am going to follow it too!
Good night ^_^
Marilys ~ Lys
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
(non)home for the summer
Wow, so I am back in Levittown for the summer and it is sooo weird! Like I'm expected to come home and keep "normal hours" and help out around the house. It’s nice seeing all my friends and going out meeting new people and going to the beach - its great, isn’t it? I mean I know it should be and I should be enjoying my last summer EVER, but I can’t help missing my friends from school and Philly.
Tricks was all flirty last night but I couldnt DO anytihng cuz of the boy. we are supposed to be on a break but its not workign for me. I really just want him here with me. Ok thats all im going to say.
Also, I think that communication is essential to the success of our relationship. If we cant be open and honest with eachother what do we really have. So I guess that means that along with anyone that can manuver the web and stumble on my ramblings, i have to tell you.
Wish me luck!!
Tricks was all flirty last night but I couldnt DO anytihng cuz of the boy. we are supposed to be on a break but its not workign for me. I really just want him here with me. Ok thats all im going to say.
Also, I think that communication is essential to the success of our relationship. If we cant be open and honest with eachother what do we really have. So I guess that means that along with anyone that can manuver the web and stumble on my ramblings, i have to tell you.
Wish me luck!!
Thursday, March 24, 2005
random stream of conscienciousness
ok, so...
i am lying on the living room floor of my house, and you know how in Garden State Andrew describes how their is a transition when ur home is no longer your home and the house that u live in or u grew up in is no longer ur HOME. Well, I believe that I have reached that point. Its quite sad actually, currently I feel i am homeless- not houseless( i have a place to live) but nowhere that i would consider home. I have been referring to philly/ drexel/ dorm as my home but it isnt really. After all it is just a room- and a rather small one at that which i share with another girl. Also, my mom didnt help things any by clearing out my room in NY. Not that she had much of a choice, but now when i AM here, granted it isnt often- it is quite expensive to get home, i dont have a room of my own. I have a bed to sleep in and a closet to hang my stuff, but its not mine- its more of a guest room really. And thus, i am homeless.
So i am laying on the floor in this house that was once my home and Mike keeps steadily treading thru my thoughts. No matter where I start i find myself thinking of him. missing him, wanting him. What is he doing right now? Is he thinking of me like i am thinking of him? Does he miss me like i miss him? I miss saying good night to you, laying beside you, your tight embrace, your scent, waking up beside you. I want you to be the last person i say goodnight to and the first person i say good morning to. I love you. I know that it hasnt been that long since we have been going out, or even since we have known eachother. But the more i am with you the more i want to be with you- the more i love you. It has only been a little more than a day since ive seen you last but its been too long. I cant stand it. I cant wait to be with you again.
i am lying on the living room floor of my house, and you know how in Garden State Andrew describes how their is a transition when ur home is no longer your home and the house that u live in or u grew up in is no longer ur HOME. Well, I believe that I have reached that point. Its quite sad actually, currently I feel i am homeless- not houseless( i have a place to live) but nowhere that i would consider home. I have been referring to philly/ drexel/ dorm as my home but it isnt really. After all it is just a room- and a rather small one at that which i share with another girl. Also, my mom didnt help things any by clearing out my room in NY. Not that she had much of a choice, but now when i AM here, granted it isnt often- it is quite expensive to get home, i dont have a room of my own. I have a bed to sleep in and a closet to hang my stuff, but its not mine- its more of a guest room really. And thus, i am homeless.
So i am laying on the floor in this house that was once my home and Mike keeps steadily treading thru my thoughts. No matter where I start i find myself thinking of him. missing him, wanting him. What is he doing right now? Is he thinking of me like i am thinking of him? Does he miss me like i miss him? I miss saying good night to you, laying beside you, your tight embrace, your scent, waking up beside you. I want you to be the last person i say goodnight to and the first person i say good morning to. I love you. I know that it hasnt been that long since we have been going out, or even since we have known eachother. But the more i am with you the more i want to be with you- the more i love you. It has only been a little more than a day since ive seen you last but its been too long. I cant stand it. I cant wait to be with you again.
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Picture
so blogger has a thing where you can put pics in a post and i have no idea if im doing this right. Hope so... but yea thats me.
Me!
my personal blog
I started this blog for Warnock and i hated doing it. But now... i kinda want a place to say stuff and hopefully have others comment!
I should totally be studying buuuut.... im not. i'm surfing the net and looking at random peoples blogs and thats why i am acually puttin an entry in here. For my first entry of interest i am going 2 find out how u all feel bout me!
Would U?
[ ] take a chance on me?
[ ] hang out with me?
[ ] go see a movie with me?
[ ] make a move on me during that movie?
[ ] hug me?
[ ] hug me a lot?
[ ] kiss me?
[ ] use your tongue?
[ ] dance with me
[ ] sing to me?
[ ] be alone in a room with me?
[ ] ever hit me?
[ ] go on a date with me?
[ ] take me to dinner?
[ ] get me drunk?
[ ] take me to your place?
[ ] sleep with me? (no sex)
[ ] cuddle with me
[ ] ask me out?
[ ] cheat on me?
[ ] please me in more ways then 1?
[ ] let me kiss you?
[ ] have a fling with me?
[ ] have more than a fling with me?
[ ] be there for me?
[ ] bring me around your friends?
[ ] give me a massage?
[ ] buy me stuff?
[ ] show me attention in public places?
[ ] hang out with me more then 2 times a week?
[ ] miss me?
[ ] enjoy being with me?
[ ] make me cry?
[ ] take me to disney world?
[ ] make me your slave?
[ ] be my slave?
[*] the ones youwould do
ima go pretend to study for my mid-terms... boatloads of fun!
I should totally be studying buuuut.... im not. i'm surfing the net and looking at random peoples blogs and thats why i am acually puttin an entry in here. For my first entry of interest i am going 2 find out how u all feel bout me!
Would U?
[ ] take a chance on me?
[ ] hang out with me?
[ ] go see a movie with me?
[ ] make a move on me during that movie?
[ ] hug me?
[ ] hug me a lot?
[ ] kiss me?
[ ] use your tongue?
[ ] dance with me
[ ] sing to me?
[ ] be alone in a room with me?
[ ] ever hit me?
[ ] go on a date with me?
[ ] take me to dinner?
[ ] get me drunk?
[ ] take me to your place?
[ ] sleep with me? (no sex)
[ ] cuddle with me
[ ] ask me out?
[ ] cheat on me?
[ ] please me in more ways then 1?
[ ] let me kiss you?
[ ] have a fling with me?
[ ] have more than a fling with me?
[ ] be there for me?
[ ] bring me around your friends?
[ ] give me a massage?
[ ] buy me stuff?
[ ] show me attention in public places?
[ ] hang out with me more then 2 times a week?
[ ] miss me?
[ ] enjoy being with me?
[ ] make me cry?
[ ] take me to disney world?
[ ] make me your slave?
[ ] be my slave?
[*] the ones youwould do
ima go pretend to study for my mid-terms... boatloads of fun!
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
Dangling Modifiers
For this post, I want you to find several Websites that offer advice about the error or issue that was the subject of your grammar presentation. Show how the various sites demonstrate how to address the issue, and tell us which site(s) you think is most useful.
Dangling Modifiers
I think this site was the most useful because it explained what it was, examples of it, how to recognize it, and how to revise it!
http://owl.english.purdue.edu/handouts/grammar/g_dangmod.html
This sit was also helpped, it had a great example... very funny!
http://englishplus.com/grammar/00000012.htm
this site addressed how funny these sentences can actually be.
http://aliscot.com/bigdog/dangling.htm
Dangling Modifiers
I think this site was the most useful because it explained what it was, examples of it, how to recognize it, and how to revise it!
http://owl.english.purdue.edu/handouts/grammar/g_dangmod.html
This sit was also helpped, it had a great example... very funny!
http://englishplus.com/grammar/00000012.htm
this site addressed how funny these sentences can actually be.
http://aliscot.com/bigdog/dangling.htm
Monday, November 22, 2004
I do NOT approve!!!
Find two sites that in some way describe China’s economic system. It would be ideal if you could find sites that contrast the way Chinese businesses work with the way businesses are run in the United States. Do these sites help you understand some of the stories in Jin’s The Bridegroom any better?
http://www.photius.com/wfb/wfb1999/china/china_economy.html
http://www.guangji.com.cn/2004/2004-09/Economic%20developments%20in%20China%20-%20Past%20&%20Present.pdf
Ha Jin's The Bridegroom, was made a little more believeable after reading these wabsites. Although they did not explain how business is conducted it did explain the governments role in business creating a clearer image of the concept of business. I also learned, as well, how lucky we are to live in America where the government does not do much more than tax us.
http://www.photius.com/wfb/wfb1999/china/china_economy.html
http://www.guangji.com.cn/2004/2004-09/Economic%20developments%20in%20China%20-%20Past%20&%20Present.pdf
Ha Jin's The Bridegroom, was made a little more believeable after reading these wabsites. Although they did not explain how business is conducted it did explain the governments role in business creating a clearer image of the concept of business. I also learned, as well, how lucky we are to live in America where the government does not do much more than tax us.
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
uggg! Quotes
Do SITES for the last entry!!! one neg and one pos!
Write (for the last time this term) two or three good quotes from anything we’ve read in here since Wright (back on Oct 19). Again, clearly explain after each quote why it struck you as interesting or significant. If possible, link the quote you picked to something you have encountered recently on the Web that reminded you of that quote or reinforced its message.
o geeze not again?!?! I'll get back to it!
Write (for the last time this term) two or three good quotes from anything we’ve read in here since Wright (back on Oct 19). Again, clearly explain after each quote why it struck you as interesting or significant. If possible, link the quote you picked to something you have encountered recently on the Web that reminded you of that quote or reinforced its message.
o geeze not again?!?! I'll get back to it!
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Pos & Neg 's of Technology
You’re in the midst of writing an essay about a particular technology. List five good things and five bad things about that technology—you might have to think hard when it comes to the bad things. Find one Website that describes a positive attribute of your technology and one Website that describes a negative aspect of it. Of course, provide links to both sites and briefly describe them.
Technology : Binder Clip
Positive
1. Promotes organization
2. Used to hold up posters
3. Can be shot at a person good ammo
4. Organizes wires
5. Bag clipper (keeps food fresh)
Negative
1. Dependance on the binder clip
2. If it accidently clips your finger
3. Shooting/ misfire of the binder clip
4. Stepping on the binder clip ( ouch!)
5. Size: Too big- hurts paper, Too small - Won't hold it together
I have been looking for websites that support my positives and negitives and i have not found any so i give up!
Technology : Binder Clip
Positive
1. Promotes organization
2. Used to hold up posters
3. Can be shot at a person good ammo
4. Organizes wires
5. Bag clipper (keeps food fresh)
Negative
1. Dependance on the binder clip
2. If it accidently clips your finger
3. Shooting/ misfire of the binder clip
4. Stepping on the binder clip ( ouch!)
5. Size: Too big- hurts paper, Too small - Won't hold it together
I have been looking for websites that support my positives and negitives and i have not found any so i give up!
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Dangerous Technology
What’s your favorite movie/book/story about the dangers of technology? Describe why you like it, and describe the way technology is depicted. Also, find two references to your choice on the Web. Link to those references and tell us what they say about it.
In the movie I, Robot, based on a book human made artificially intelliegent robots which end up attempting to revolt and take over the world. I really enjoyed this movie because it made me think if we could ever create artificial intelligence. Technology throughout this film has a huge impact on the characters life. Vertually everything the characters do are dependent upon the technology. All the technology is viewed in a positive light until the robots revolt then the people question the A.I. technology, but only that was challenged.
http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.c gi?f=/c/a/2004/07/16/DDGKD7LH2H1.DTL&type=movies
This review states that although the movie was good the technological advances are not that far-fetched. It is completely possible that in the near future, there can be robots able to do many domestic tasks in the hu mans place.
http://movie-reviews.colossus.net/movies/i/i_robot.html
This review disagrees with the estimated year of the setting because the tachnology depicted in this movie is too far off. They claim that the year 2035 is fairly inaccurate and would be more accurate to say year 2070. But they also say that most of the technology is basically accurate because it is, other than the cars and the robots, is the same as the technology that we have today.
In the movie I, Robot, based on a book human made artificially intelliegent robots which end up attempting to revolt and take over the world. I really enjoyed this movie because it made me think if we could ever create artificial intelligence. Technology throughout this film has a huge impact on the characters life. Vertually everything the characters do are dependent upon the technology. All the technology is viewed in a positive light until the robots revolt then the people question the A.I. technology, but only that was challenged.
http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.c gi?f=/c/a/2004/07/16/DDGKD7LH2H1.DTL&type=movies
This review states that although the movie was good the technological advances are not that far-fetched. It is completely possible that in the near future, there can be robots able to do many domestic tasks in the hu mans place.
http://movie-reviews.colossus.net/movies/i/i_robot.html
This review disagrees with the estimated year of the setting because the tachnology depicted in this movie is too far off. They claim that the year 2035 is fairly inaccurate and would be more accurate to say year 2070. But they also say that most of the technology is basically accurate because it is, other than the cars and the robots, is the same as the technology that we have today.
Friday, October 29, 2004
Binder Clip articles
Assignment: Find two articles/stories/mentions on the Web of the technology that you think you want to write essay #2 about. Link to the sites, and describe why they might help you think about your essay (obviously, that means you have to look a bit to find something particularly interesting/useful).
http://www.biggeworld.com/archive/npbizpaper.html
This site has an awesome quote that i will definately use in my paper about the amazing benifit of bider clips. "Simple, overlooked, the paper clip does nothing less than keep the complex world of business stuck together"
http://www.solarcar.arizona.edu/technical/circuit_boards.php
This site describes how to make your own circuit boards. It describes the steps in detail and the binder clip is used numerous times throughout the process.
http://www.biggeworld.com/archive/npbizpaper.html
This site has an awesome quote that i will definately use in my paper about the amazing benifit of bider clips. "Simple, overlooked, the paper clip does nothing less than keep the complex world of business stuck together"
http://www.solarcar.arizona.edu/technical/circuit_boards.php
This site describes how to make your own circuit boards. It describes the steps in detail and the binder clip is used numerous times throughout the process.
Monday, October 25, 2004
new and interesting words...?
10/26
Write down at least five words that you’ve learned or that you think are interesting from the readings we’ve done so far. Define each word, write why it struck you as interesting, and find at least one place on the Web where that word is used and link to that page.
ill get back to you on this one...
Triviality - the quality or condition of being trivial (trivial - of little significance. ordinary or commonplace.
The word triviality struck me as interesting because most often the word trivial is used as the adjective. It was the only time i had ever heard of it being used in as different function, a noun.
Treat all disasters as if they were trivialities but never treat a triviality as if it were a disaster.
-Quentin Crisp
http://www.quotationspage.com/quotes/Quentin_Crisp/
Vie(d) - to strive for superiority.
I will definately be using this word in the future. It is such a strong word, especially in Angelou's sentence.
http://web.mit.edu/newsoffice/2003/lee-0402.html
Palpable - Tangible. Easily percieved.
I was intrigued when I read this word because it was used in such a way that made me question its meaning.
http://www.webref.org/cancer/p/palpable_disease.htm
Wistfully - full of yearning or desire tinged with melancholy; inspiring such yearning.
This word is a combination of two word (which is so cool) : Wishfully + Wistly = Wistfully (according to webster dictionary)
http://gimbo.org.uk/wedding/photos/mike/3/3_13.html
Buoy - to raise the spirits of.
Buoy stood out to be because when i hear or read a word that i had never heard before, i get very curious. I had heard the word used as a noun as in a floating device, but i had never heard it used as a verb.
http://www.websters-online-dictionary.org/definition/english/fl/float.html
Write down at least five words that you’ve learned or that you think are interesting from the readings we’ve done so far. Define each word, write why it struck you as interesting, and find at least one place on the Web where that word is used and link to that page.
ill get back to you on this one...
Triviality - the quality or condition of being trivial (trivial - of little significance. ordinary or commonplace.
The word triviality struck me as interesting because most often the word trivial is used as the adjective. It was the only time i had ever heard of it being used in as different function, a noun.
Treat all disasters as if they were trivialities but never treat a triviality as if it were a disaster.
-Quentin Crisp
http://www.quotationspage.com/quotes/Quentin_Crisp/
Vie(d) - to strive for superiority.
I will definately be using this word in the future. It is such a strong word, especially in Angelou's sentence.
http://web.mit.edu/newsoffice/2003/lee-0402.html
Palpable - Tangible. Easily percieved.
I was intrigued when I read this word because it was used in such a way that made me question its meaning.
http://www.webref.org/cancer/p/palpable_disease.htm
Wistfully - full of yearning or desire tinged with melancholy; inspiring such yearning.
This word is a combination of two word (which is so cool) : Wishfully + Wistly = Wistfully (according to webster dictionary)
http://gimbo.org.uk/wedding/photos/mike/3/3_13.html
Buoy - to raise the spirits of.
Buoy stood out to be because when i hear or read a word that i had never heard before, i get very curious. I had heard the word used as a noun as in a floating device, but i had never heard it used as a verb.
http://www.websters-online-dictionary.org/definition/english/fl/float.html
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Quotes Assignment
This is me getting back to you :
I really enjoyed the first section of the Richard Wright piece, I love when a writer makes comparison within the story simply with the diction. In the first piece of The Ethics of Living Jim Crow, Wright tells about a fight between him and the white boys that live across the train tracks. I enjoy the expanded metaphor he uses throughout the fight. Using war terminology, places much emphasis on the fight, making it seem greater than it is. "The sight of blood pouring over my face completely demoralized our ranks."
Reading an exerpt from Kings novel On Writing, i learned that every book, or at least he believes, "has its own lesson or lessons, and quite often the bad books have more to teach than the good ones." They teach what NOT to do.
And what is "more encouraging to the struggling writer than to realize his/her work is unquestionably better than that of someone who actually got paid for his/her stuff ?" I picked this qoute because i completely agree, being forced to read The Brigeroom by Ha Jin, more than once that exact thought went through my head; I or writers i know, that have yet to be published, have written "unquestionably better" pieces of literature.
I really enjoyed the first section of the Richard Wright piece, I love when a writer makes comparison within the story simply with the diction. In the first piece of The Ethics of Living Jim Crow, Wright tells about a fight between him and the white boys that live across the train tracks. I enjoy the expanded metaphor he uses throughout the fight. Using war terminology, places much emphasis on the fight, making it seem greater than it is. "The sight of blood pouring over my face completely demoralized our ranks."
Reading an exerpt from Kings novel On Writing, i learned that every book, or at least he believes, "has its own lesson or lessons, and quite often the bad books have more to teach than the good ones." They teach what NOT to do.
And what is "more encouraging to the struggling writer than to realize his/her work is unquestionably better than that of someone who actually got paid for his/her stuff ?" I picked this qoute because i completely agree, being forced to read The Brigeroom by Ha Jin, more than once that exact thought went through my head; I or writers i know, that have yet to be published, have written "unquestionably better" pieces of literature.
Monday, October 18, 2004
Quotes
Assignment #3 :
Write two or three good quotes from either Kafka, King, Angelou, or Wright. Explain after each one why it struck you as interesting or significant. If possible, link the quote you picked to something you have encountered recently on the Web that reminded you of that quote or reinforced its message.
ummm ... i'll get back to you on that one.
Y LYS
Write two or three good quotes from either Kafka, King, Angelou, or Wright. Explain after each one why it struck you as interesting or significant. If possible, link the quote you picked to something you have encountered recently on the Web that reminded you of that quote or reinforced its message.
ummm ... i'll get back to you on that one.
Y LYS
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Find a Website that contains information to help students revise their writing. Link to it, and briefly describe its content. What is one of the toughest things that you find about revising your own papers?
A website that contains information to help during the revising process is:
http://www.uwc.ucf.edu/Writing%20Resources/Handouts/proof_techniques.htm
In my opinion, the most difficult thing about revising my own paper is the fact that I wrote it. :D When rereading for revisions, even when I know something needs to be worded dfferently i can not think of how else to say the same thing. Also when reading my paper if something is missing or i reversed 2 words i subconsciencly fix it and thus do not pick up on the mistake.
A website that contains information to help during the revising process is:
http://www.uwc.ucf.edu/Writing%20Resources/Handouts/proof_techniques.htm
In my opinion, the most difficult thing about revising my own paper is the fact that I wrote it. :D When rereading for revisions, even when I know something needs to be worded dfferently i can not think of how else to say the same thing. Also when reading my paper if something is missing or i reversed 2 words i subconsciencly fix it and thus do not pick up on the mistake.
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Our first Paper...EEEK!!!!
Assignment #3
Describe some kind of obstacle or problem you encountered when writing the rough draft of essay #1 and how you overcame that problem.
Since i just started writing the rough draft, i have yet to encounter any profound unbearably challenging obstacle. Yet, in writing the rough draft, I was faced with the problem of not knowing the exact expectations of Prof. Warnock. As far as the topic and such is concerned we went over it in great depth so i know where to go with that. But as with any new teacher, their expectations are unclear, there really is no way to overcome this problem until after we are returned our rough drafts with comments and suggestions.
If I come across any other problems or questions i will bwe sure to note them in another blog entry, but for now that's it.
Describe some kind of obstacle or problem you encountered when writing the rough draft of essay #1 and how you overcame that problem.
Since i just started writing the rough draft, i have yet to encounter any profound unbearably challenging obstacle. Yet, in writing the rough draft, I was faced with the problem of not knowing the exact expectations of Prof. Warnock. As far as the topic and such is concerned we went over it in great depth so i know where to go with that. But as with any new teacher, their expectations are unclear, there really is no way to overcome this problem until after we are returned our rough drafts with comments and suggestions.
If I come across any other problems or questions i will bwe sure to note them in another blog entry, but for now that's it.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
My Favorite Words ... hmmm?!?
Assignment # 2 Make a list of your favorite words—at least 10 of them—and explain why you like these words. Feel free to pick any words you want, and any explanation will do.
Nuance A gradation of color; a slight degree of difference. It sounds so smooth and elegant.
No An expression of refusal or denial. In any language that I have ever heard, the word “no” is extremely similar if not the same.
Ethereal Heavenly, airy, intangible. I absolutely believe that heavenly beings exist and we can see them if we would simply open our eyes.
Water A clear, colorless, tasteless, odorless liquid essential for plant and animal life. When a person says the word water, their accent is the thickest, at least in many cases.
Zainy It’s not a real word but it is used to mean quirky and crazy. I like using it because it is not a word found in the dictionary.
Unique The only one of its kind, without an equal. I am often called unique… I love it.
Taboo A ban or an inhibition resulting from social custom or emotional aversion. I would love to live in a society in which nothing is taboo that would suggest true tolerance.
Fork A utensil with two or more prongs, used for eating or serving food. If “fork” is repeated too many times it sounds hysterical.
Retard A slowing down or hindering of progress; a delay. When the word was first used it was meant to be a word for the mentally handicapped without any negative connotation but in the present day, it is one of the most degrading of descriptions.
Cellerdoor The door that leads to the cellar. I know its probably two words but … too bad! Dismiss the meaning, say the word aloud a few times and listen, truly listen: it is beautiful!
Those, I have concluded after much thought, are my favorite words!
Nuance A gradation of color; a slight degree of difference. It sounds so smooth and elegant.
No An expression of refusal or denial. In any language that I have ever heard, the word “no” is extremely similar if not the same.
Ethereal Heavenly, airy, intangible. I absolutely believe that heavenly beings exist and we can see them if we would simply open our eyes.
Water A clear, colorless, tasteless, odorless liquid essential for plant and animal life. When a person says the word water, their accent is the thickest, at least in many cases.
Zainy It’s not a real word but it is used to mean quirky and crazy. I like using it because it is not a word found in the dictionary.
Unique The only one of its kind, without an equal. I am often called unique… I love it.
Taboo A ban or an inhibition resulting from social custom or emotional aversion. I would love to live in a society in which nothing is taboo that would suggest true tolerance.
Fork A utensil with two or more prongs, used for eating or serving food. If “fork” is repeated too many times it sounds hysterical.
Retard A slowing down or hindering of progress; a delay. When the word was first used it was meant to be a word for the mentally handicapped without any negative connotation but in the present day, it is one of the most degrading of descriptions.
Cellerdoor The door that leads to the cellar. I know its probably two words but … too bad! Dismiss the meaning, say the word aloud a few times and listen, truly listen: it is beautiful!
Those, I have concluded after much thought, are my favorite words!
Monday, October 04, 2004
Part C
Have you ever met someone that was smart but always seemed to do poorly in school? Howard Gardner believes that it is because in school only two of the many intelligences are tested. He suggests that there are actually seven different intelligences: lingustics, locical math, spatial, musical, bodily-kenesthetic, intrapersonal and interpersonal. He suggests alternate forms of teaching and discovering what the student is good at. "Instead of looking at a child and saying, 'He's smart' or 'He's dumb,' people wouild talk in terms of a child's strength and weaknesses." He also suggested we dispose of standardized testing and aptitude tests because they are too often used to assess our future successes in "the real world". "How much does doing well in school predict success outside of school? Very little" I love that Howard Gardner a Professor at a highly esteemed Ivy league school, Harvard University, can admit that testing in school provides us with a false sense of a students intelligence.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Part B
In the excerpt from Autobiography of Malcolm X, "A Homemade Education", Malcolm X describes books as his alma mater because the majority of his education, after eighth grade, was from reading in prison. In reading Findings in Genetics, by Gregor Mandell, often called the father of genitics, Malcolm X learned that "if you started with a black man, a white man can be produced; but starting with a white man, you never could produce a black man- because the white chromosome is recessive. And since no one disputes that there was but one Original Man, the conclusion is clear." I was reminded of this quote in Biology when mtDNA, mitochondrial DNA that which is passed on to the offspring, only from the maternal unit, was being discussed the Professor stated that reciently scientists discovered, through tracing of mtDNA, that the human race decended from a single woman "Eve", who derived from Africa more than 171,000 years ago. I found it facinating that Malcolm X was able to theorize or learn the "Original Man" was black simply from reading, whereas it is likely that it took many scientists and many intense tests for it to even be mentioned in science classes. Also it is likely that many still dispute this scientifically tested theory.
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Part A
This is part A of blog assignment 1
In Greg Graffin's, "Anarchy in the Tenth Grade", he explains what it means to be Punk. Usually, when people think of punks they imagine teenagers that have excessive piercings, numerous tattoos, crazy dyed hair, and loud music. Graffin displays Punk in a radically different light; he approaches it as a way of thinking and a lifestyle, rather than approaching Punk as a personal style. He claims that
anyone who thinks dogmatically and challanges the institutions in which we were raised and kept, as a society, is Punk; but "it is an inane task to try and define Punk universally. A sixteen-year-old girl from an affluent religious family who shows up to church with her green mowhawk and FUCK JESUS shirt is Punk. But so is a forty-two-year-old biology professor who claims that Charles Darwin's ideas were wrong." People should understand and accept that you dont have to dress a certain way or listen to a certain type of music to be Punk in Graffin's eyes.
In Greg Graffin's, "Anarchy in the Tenth Grade", he explains what it means to be Punk. Usually, when people think of punks they imagine teenagers that have excessive piercings, numerous tattoos, crazy dyed hair, and loud music. Graffin displays Punk in a radically different light; he approaches it as a way of thinking and a lifestyle, rather than approaching Punk as a personal style. He claims that
anyone who thinks dogmatically and challanges the institutions in which we were raised and kept, as a society, is Punk; but "it is an inane task to try and define Punk universally. A sixteen-year-old girl from an affluent religious family who shows up to church with her green mowhawk and FUCK JESUS shirt is Punk. But so is a forty-two-year-old biology professor who claims that Charles Darwin's ideas were wrong." People should understand and accept that you dont have to dress a certain way or listen to a certain type of music to be Punk in Graffin's eyes.
Friday, October 01, 2004
The Beginning
In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.... but that was way before our time and its not relavant at this point, in the slightest amount.
Well this is my first time ever keeping an online journal, or a Blog. And if it weren't for Prof. Wornock and his crazy assignments I probably would never keep one, but since it is required you are now privvy to my private thoughts ... or atleast the ones I am required to share.
Assignment #1
Write two or three good quotes from the first three essays we have read, and explain after each one why it struck you as interesting. It might be useful for you to include how these quotes could help you develop an idea for essay #1.
Well this is my first time ever keeping an online journal, or a Blog. And if it weren't for Prof. Wornock and his crazy assignments I probably would never keep one, but since it is required you are now privvy to my private thoughts ... or atleast the ones I am required to share.
Assignment #1
Write two or three good quotes from the first three essays we have read, and explain after each one why it struck you as interesting. It might be useful for you to include how these quotes could help you develop an idea for essay #1.
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